Awkward situations

Ok I know I haven't been putting that much effort ( or hardly any at all ) into this blog but that's because my original plan for it was for it to be an outlet for my creativity. However I have been too lazy to write stories or poems lately so I'm turning it into a place where I talk about most of the things I come across in my life and by far one of the most frequent things i experience is awkward situations.

Whether its along a long hallway when you have to walk by some random person you dont really know, or if its at lunch when you find yourself sitting alone, these are one of the worst times of your life (obviously not but they still suck pretty hard).

As a loner, I get into a lot of awkward situations on the daily basis and though i know not many people might see this. If you do please leave a comment telling me what kind of awkward situations you encounter in your life.

Gossip

It is so hard to concentrate on anything around me when people talk. For some weird reason I always find myself fully concentrating on what they say. Even while typing this I was only able to devote like 30% of my attention to it.

Gossip is a horrible thing,

unfortunately its also one of the sweetest things in the world.

Hate

I always find myself consumed with hate,
whether it's directed outward, inward or at nothing at all.
It burns so fiercely that I find myself short of breath,
and it gradually builds up, slowly steering me to madness,

At all times there is always someone I hate
I don't know why but it seems like fate,
I've loved, I've grieved, I've feared and I've trusted
but no other emotion plagues me as much as hatred.
And even though seeing others consumed by it can fill one up with glee,
I always secretly fear for those who trigger it in me.

Hypocrisy

To act out of character,
      to act in order to please.
To preach about good nature,
      and do wrong while no one sees.

I lies within us all,
      softly beckoning us to fall.
Whether out of pride, secrecy,
      or just for the rush.
That inner demon will awaken,
      without much of a fuss.
And though some try to fight,
      seeing it as their duty to at least try.
We all eventually give in,
      sometimes with just a little white lie.

Friends

The story of friendship is a common tale told in many different ways but lately I've run in a bit of controversy in my own life. I heard a quote once that talked about people embracing the differences in each other and not trying to make everyone conform to their own ways of life. I considered myself a firm believer in this until recently.
       Sometimes no matter how much you try and delude yourself by thinking that you can embrace anyone despite your differences in age, style and senses of humor its just not possible. As politically incorrect as it might seem, the only people you can truly enjoy and cherish in your life are those who you share many similarities with. Someone who can complete your sentences and laugh when you do and not people with whom you constantly battle with concerning what to do and who constantly annoy you with their views on certain subjects.

        Of course all this is just my personal opinion, but its something I've come to believe in after a series of recurring events............I guess i'll still have to leave the idea open and look more into it though.

Power

I'm sorry I haven't posted anything in a while but the truth is I just haven't found any real inspiration to do anything. The last post about Madonna wasn't inspired, I just felt like i had to keep updating my blog and I ended up getting a really bad review from some of my followers. Hence I decided not to post anything new until my juices really got flowing.

On a new topic, I've been having a lot of discussions about the meaning of power  in one of my classes and have begun thinking about it a lot. 

One particularly interesting concept I heard was the notion that human beings are entities driven solely by the desire for power and though at first that might be easy to disagree with, upon further thought it really seems true. Even concerning religion.

The aspect of religion seems like a really grey area, but the more I thought about and argued about it, the more I started to see it. Most religions, either have an iconic being that holds complete power, or serve as a source of upliftment. Either way, that can be interpreted as people attaching themselves to a source of power or attaching themselves to something that will release them from feelings of oppression and fear.

My teacher even said something about evolution with got me thinking. It was about the theory of survival of the fittest and it made quite a lot of sense to me. 

 He cited the fact that most people get either jealous or angry when someone around them succeeds or is elevated to a higher position and how people also secretly delight in the suffering of others. He argued that this behavior isn't just one of the usual things that bad people do but is a manifestation of our primal instincts of survival of the fittest, that the success of others makes us feel intimidated and the suffering of others makes us feel like we're in higher and better positions. In a nutshell, it all comes down to power.

The power of Madonna

I know this is the second time this week I'm talking about the Glee show but I was so touched by this I had to post it. This video is taken from the episode titled "The power of Madonna" and I got me thinking about how much madonna truly helped the world through music.

The first madonna video I ever watched was "Hung up" and it took me by suprise. It seemed kinda old school but still really energetic. It just looked like everything music should be.

I love music with beats, and sounds that make you wanna move every inch of your body but one thing I always noticed about madonna's music and one thing this video made me fully realise is how she makes you feel free. I just has this weird effect on you.

There's a lot more I want to say about madonna but nothing solid is really coming to mind. You guys should check out this video and tell me what you feel.

The Unbearable lightness of being

I found out how television can really open your eyes towards things. I'm a huge fan of gossip girl and I constantly find myself influenced by a lot of things from that show, (in a positive way). I even heard two of my favourite songs for the first time on it.

My most recent source of inspiration came from the title of the latest episode which as some of you might now is, "The Unblairable lightness of being". Gossip girl episodes are always named after really popular things with just slight modifications to make them refer to the show. One of the many examples are "Inglourious Bassterds" and "The Empire strikes Jack".

The name of the latest episode was taken from an old book titled "The Unbearable lightness of being" by Milan Kundera. Its a tale set in the Czechoslovak Communist period of 1968. It explores the artistic and intellectual life of Czech society from the Prague Spring to the Soviet Union’s 1968 invasion. I've already ordered the book online and can't wait to read it, not only because of where I heard about it from, but also because I realised how little I know about that time. I hope some of you out there might try looking it up to.

Rotary International

Just thinking about the meaning of philanthropy. What is better?, money or effort. Is it better to donate money to a cause or to invest a lot of effort into it. naturally the first thing that comes to mind is that money is better, but upon further thought I've begun to doubt that. A lot of well known philanthropists always say that they feel a lot better after personally helping out those in need but that doesn't necessarily mean more for the people they're helping. I joined the Rotaract club in my school today. It's an organization geared towards philanthropy and helping people around the world. I just hope I can stay dedicated towards it and maybe find out for my self which form of philanthropy is better.

Glee - Hope it gives u hell

Glee - Hope it gives u hell

I just watched hope it gives u hell by the glee cast over 10 times. It amazes me just how uplifting songs can be, regardless of whether the topic of the song pertains to you or not. Simply amazing

You guys should really check it out.

The Colour green

My favorite color has always been green,

It symbolizes all I am and all I have seen.

Whether I see it in leaves, clothes or eyes,

Its as if a part of me just sprouts wings and flies.

I don't know if it makes me seem without life or vigor,

All I know is that I am completely defined by that 1 color.

Green is life, Green is free, Green is calm,

and that is all I am and all I ever want to become.

Restarting my blogging experience

I used to blog a long time ago but then my mom discouraged me from doing so after telling me all the dangers associated with it. I now want to restart it but will not post different things. Before I used to write all about myself and just vent out on the world but now I'm gonna use it to show my creativity. Ive always loved writing poems and stories and now I'm gonna show them off to the world so if you're following me you'll be in for some big treats.